Behind Insomnia

today i woke up looking like sh*t.

i couldn't sleep last night, especially that i was a squatter in my own house; as my aunt arrived and used my room for the night. i kept falling off the small bed, and i felt like a batallion of mosquitoes was ready to lift me up anytime...

i kept singing Sugarfree's Tulog Na to myself just so that i could finally sleep. and i was actually the hoping the lyrics were true. haha. maybe im not that anti-sentimental after all... (^^)

Tulog na mahal ko

Hayaan na muna natin ang mundong ito

Lika na, tulog na tayo.

Tulog na mahal ko

Wag kang lumuha, malambot ang iyong kama

Saka na mamroblema

Tulog na hayaan na muna natin sila

Mamaya, hndi ka na nila kaya pang saktan

Kung matulog, matulog ka na...

Tulog na mahal ko

Nandito lang akong bahala sa iyo

Sige na, tulog na muna

Tulog na, mahal ko

At baka bukas ngingiti ka sa wakas

At sabay nating harapin ang mundo

reasons why i couldn't sleep last night:

1. - i was constantly sliding off the bed, and the blanket wasnt keeping me secure at all. im never gonna sleep in that side again.
2. - the light from the kitchen was too bright. i hate it.
3. - my brain was bugging me to write. and i couldnt because my bro was using the computer.
4. - i was stressing too much about leaving.
5. - YOU: im worried. and i hate worrying 'cause im getting these stupid eyebags! im not mad at you, im just thinking about how you must be right now. even though i guess that means nothing to you now. I KNOW how bad you are trying to get rid of me. IT IS obvious, pal. and just so you know, im a very sticky person. i may be the most stubborn leech you'll ever find. im not going away that easily. i can stay as long as it takes for you to open those eyes and start seeing. it will be very hard to get rid of me. i am different; no one can take me in their lives and then suddenly just take me out of it. and please, stop with the excuses... dont expect me to believe your strengths, because I KNOW your weaknesses. yes, you have changed but it's not keeping me away from you. don't push me away just because YOU yourself can't stand the way you treat me.

i still look like crap and i don't care.