Possibly my worst entry ever.

it's been three or four months since...

i can't help thinking that the universe may have conspired to make my life more miserable that it already is. blah, blah, blah... as much as i try to not ponder on it, there are just those moments when i'd still ask the damn world: what did i ever do to deserve this...

yes, i am lucky. im so fortunate to be not one of those starving kids melting under African sun, or that beggar i see everyday. so there, i think i just asked myself to stop complaining and shut up.

if only i knew that this would be the cost of my boldness and ambition... i would have just curled up in my precious cell. this mood lasted longer than i expected, i dont think i can live another month feeling like this...


good lord, does bad luck really have to shower on me on a single day?!